So, I took Canaan to my friend Megan's house today to play with her son Eli and I realized something. I once thought little babies walking through the pasture with horses was cute, before I became a mother. Now, I stand between my baby and the horse for fear that he might get hurt. Horses used to come first, before I had a baby, now they do good to be ridden once every other month. I used to let my "outside" dog in the house, now she stays outside so Canaan has a a clean floor to eat his Cheerios off of. There was a time when I went to Target for groceries and always bought clothes, shoes and make-up for me, but now all I want to do is buy for my sweet boy. Not to mention there is no extra money, so anything I do buy is for Canaan because it makes him happy. I am happy whenever my son is happy.
I used to think about what I was going to eat for meals, now I think of what healthy and new foods can we come up with today for Canaan! Before I had him, I used to swing on the swings at the park for fun, now I push him for fun. All these things that I enjoyed before I became a mother are nothing compared to the love and adoration that you can feel towards your child. I once thought about my own happiness and now, all I want is for Canaan to be happy. It's great to be a mother, because you get to feel a love that you never imagined. It was just funny how I came to realize this today...all from the horse out in the pasture, getting a little too close for comfort to my precious baby. Things have changed in our lives and it gives me more satisfaction than anything I once enjoyed doing.
I am more aware of my surroundings too. This evening, Justin and I had to go to Denton to get his tux for a friends wedding. So, we took Canaan to a park to let him play because it was beautiful outside! I walk up with Canaan to the playground and there was a man and wife, older, playing with grand kids, or maybe their kids...not sure, anyways, the man knelt down and tried to shake Canaan's hand. This took me by surprise because I don't think it's cool to touch any one's baby without knowing them, especially a weird dude in a park. Canaan shook his head at the man and turned to me and I picked him up quickly. It really bothered me. I never thought I would be so cold towards people or rude. God has trusted me to care for this little baby and I would do anything to keep him safe.
I know this is a long one, but I just noticed a lot today. Tonight, Canaan didn't want to go to sleep, which is unusual for him. I went in to rock him a little and when he looked at me, he signed please and then said "ahh ahh". So, started to sing to him and I was going to stop and put him back in bed and he signed please more for me to sing to him. He was enjoying me singing to him. It filled my heart with so much joy that I could have cried. I am big baby these days! Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for such an amazing gift. When I put him in bed, I ask him if I could leave him now for him to go night night, and he shook his head yes. He is so smart and sweet. Thank you Lord for our little man! I just had to share my thoughts for today because I realized that things really have changed, big time!
I used to think about what I was going to eat for meals, now I think of what healthy and new foods can we come up with today for Canaan! Before I had him, I used to swing on the swings at the park for fun, now I push him for fun. All these things that I enjoyed before I became a mother are nothing compared to the love and adoration that you can feel towards your child. I once thought about my own happiness and now, all I want is for Canaan to be happy. It's great to be a mother, because you get to feel a love that you never imagined. It was just funny how I came to realize this today...all from the horse out in the pasture, getting a little too close for comfort to my precious baby. Things have changed in our lives and it gives me more satisfaction than anything I once enjoyed doing.
I am more aware of my surroundings too. This evening, Justin and I had to go to Denton to get his tux for a friends wedding. So, we took Canaan to a park to let him play because it was beautiful outside! I walk up with Canaan to the playground and there was a man and wife, older, playing with grand kids, or maybe their kids...not sure, anyways, the man knelt down and tried to shake Canaan's hand. This took me by surprise because I don't think it's cool to touch any one's baby without knowing them, especially a weird dude in a park. Canaan shook his head at the man and turned to me and I picked him up quickly. It really bothered me. I never thought I would be so cold towards people or rude. God has trusted me to care for this little baby and I would do anything to keep him safe.
I know this is a long one, but I just noticed a lot today. Tonight, Canaan didn't want to go to sleep, which is unusual for him. I went in to rock him a little and when he looked at me, he signed please and then said "ahh ahh". So, started to sing to him and I was going to stop and put him back in bed and he signed please more for me to sing to him. He was enjoying me singing to him. It filled my heart with so much joy that I could have cried. I am big baby these days! Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for such an amazing gift. When I put him in bed, I ask him if I could leave him now for him to go night night, and he shook his head yes. He is so smart and sweet. Thank you Lord for our little man! I just had to share my thoughts for today because I realized that things really have changed, big time!
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Thanks for sharing Hannah. That is really sweet and so true how different life is once you are a mother - and how precious and amazing a gift it is!
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