My how things have changed!

So, I took Canaan to my friend Megan's house today to play with her son Eli and I realized something. I once thought little babies walking through the pasture with horses was cute, before I became a mother. Now, I stand between my baby and the horse for fear that he might get hurt. Horses used to come first, before I had a baby, now they do good to be ridden once every other month. I used to let my "outside" dog in the house, now she stays outside so Canaan has a a clean floor to eat his Cheerios off of. There was a time when I went to Target for groceries and always bought clothes, shoes and make-up for me, but now all I want to do is buy for my sweet boy. Not to mention there is no extra money, so anything I do buy is for Canaan because it makes him happy. I am happy whenever my son is happy.

I used to think about what I was going to eat for meals, now I think of what healthy and new foods can we come up with today for Canaan! Before I had him, I used to swing on the swings at the park for fun, now I push him for fun. All these things that I enjoyed before I became a mother are nothing compared to the love and adoration that you can feel towards your child. I once thought about my own happiness and now, all I want is for Canaan to be happy. It's great to be a mother, because you get to feel a love that you never imagined. It was just funny how I came to realize this today...all from the horse out in the pasture, getting a little too close for comfort to my precious baby. Things have changed in our lives and it gives me more satisfaction than anything I once enjoyed doing.

I am more aware of my surroundings too. This evening, Justin and I had to go to Denton to get his tux for a friends wedding. So, we took Canaan to a park to let him play because it was beautiful outside! I walk up with Canaan to the playground and there was a man and wife, older, playing with grand kids, or maybe their kids...not sure, anyways, the man knelt down and tried to shake Canaan's hand. This took me by surprise because I don't think it's cool to touch any one's baby without knowing them, especially a weird dude in a park. Canaan shook his head at the man and turned to me and I picked him up quickly. It really bothered me. I never thought I would be so cold towards people or rude. God has trusted me to care for this little baby and I would do anything to keep him safe.

I know this is a long one, but I just noticed a lot today. Tonight, Canaan didn't want to go to sleep, which is unusual for him. I went in to rock him a little and when he looked at me, he signed please and then said "ahh ahh". So, started to sing to him and I was going to stop and put him back in bed and he signed please more for me to sing to him. He was enjoying me singing to him. It filled my heart with so much joy that I could have cried. I am big baby these days! Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for such an amazing gift. When I put him in bed, I ask him if I could leave him now for him to go night night, and he shook his head yes. He is so smart and sweet. Thank you Lord for our little man! I just had to share my thoughts for today because I realized that things really have changed, big time!

The Easter Bunny!

Well, to start with, I only got a few pics this Easter:( I couldnt find my camera Easter morning when Canaan woke up to find his Easter basket and I had a horrible headache all day and it was raining! Other than that, it was ok. We went to church with my mom and Canaan wouldn't sit still so it was his first time to go to the nursery! I have never left him with someone other than my mom or mom-in-law, so it was hard...for me and Justin, not Canaan. He did great! When we picked him up, he was playing but very happy to see us. We knew the guy that was watching him pretty well, so it wasn't too bad I guess;)

We went to eat over at Justin's grandmother's house and Canaan got to play with his cousin Sanora's bunny! He didn't want to touch it but when we put the bunny in his cage, Canaan kept talking to him and squealing to him through the bars!! It was so cute. I did get that picture but I left my camera over there so it will have to wait. Then we went and visited with my mom, dad and Nicholas. We didn't stay too long because we had to leave to do our sign route, oh so fun.

Of course tryin to explain what Easter is all about to a 1 yr old isnt easy. I told him but he just looked at me and said buhbuh, "bubble". All he wanted was for me to blow bubbles at him:) Next year will be more exciting for him Im sure. Oh and he says new words every day!! Sunday it was buhbuh, for "bubbles" and jack, for "jacket". He is amazing!

So much has changed!

Well, Canaan Luke is now 14 1/2 months old and I haven't posted anything since he got his DOC Band off. I feel horrible about this! I realized today that it's hard to remember all the little things that he did at 9 months and 1 yr and so on. His baby book really stopped at 1 yr as far as where you can write all the stuff down so I am going to be dedicated to making sure I document this baby boy of ours! I have lots of pics:) I'm good there, it's just writing things down. So, heres some catching up!

Justin and I are doing great! He is still working so hard so I can stay home with Canaan. He is such a wonderful man! He loves his family, works hard for us, and loves the Lord. Canaan thinks it's the end of the world when Dada leaves, it's so sad! He adores him and he should.

Canaan is doing so many new things! He eats well, although can be picky in what he wants to eat;) He LOVES water...no juice for this boy! He would eat and sleep outside if we let him and gets terribly upset when we bring him inside. He is so smart! He signs more, please, eat, thank you, and blows kisses! He loves to kiss and hug. He pees in front of the potty every night, but we dont know why..hehe, He hearts bread..mmm his fav, He says Mama, Dada, G'ma, GanGan, dog, duck, cat, uh-oh, hiyo..for hello, g'bye, hole, poopoo, cookie, cracker, and more! He knows animal sounds, his fav is monkeys and dogs, he sits in his chair and looks at ALL of his books once a day at least. He brushes his teeth and calls himself an goo boy, minus the d. His smile is amazingly cute! He nods his head yes and no and does it while doing things he shouldn't. He loves tractors and trucks and says rooooommm, for vroom:) He drives the Wii wheels like he is playing and says rooomm. This boy can dance too! He has happy feet! You say happy feet and he goes to town w/ his feet...Gangan taught him that. He has 4 top teeth and 4 bottom and 2 upper molars. He loves the vacuum cleaner and runs and chases it. He tried to plug anything electronic into any wall, outlet or not. Takes pitures and videos of himself...accidental but he does all the time! He sleeps so well!! Yay:) All night and 2 naps. He tries to feed himself with a spoon, he like cheerios in everything...yogurt, fruit, milk, eggs. He likes to watch...on occassion, Imagination Movers, Handy Manny and Backyardigans. He loves trains and airplanes. He still takes 3 bottles and day, a paci at night, has a stuffed monkey, a snugli, and sits rear facing in the car! Im sure there is way more but Im tired! Ohhh, He absolutely LOVES 4 wheeler rides w/ Dada!

He has now decided that bath time is wasting time. He does it but it's quick. Hates eggs but if there are cheerios involved, then it's a go! Is not fond of diaper changing and is pretty sure naked is the way to be. Prefers dirty hands over clean, or maybe its the process of cleaning them. Dislikes having to hold hands while walking. NO juice or fast foods for this guy! Hates being told no, who doesnt? and he hates to wait for food, impatient on that one!

So, this is Canaan in a couple paragraphs...I'll do my best to keep this up! Maybe it wont be so long then;)